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John Teague was near frozen solid sitting in the hard cold choir
stalls of the chapel at Coolock. Though he and the other boys
pressed together as close as they dared, it was fair impossible
to hoard even a little warmth while inside the stone church during
these raw winter mornings. Mass seemed endless when one considered
the bowls of hot porridge awaiting the boys in the rectory after
the last amen had been said. Johns stomach growled pleadingly
and he pressed his arms in tight around his middle to stop the
ache.
He thought of his mother and older sister Kit and baby Mary,
surely still abed in their rooms by the waterfront at Ballybough.
Cold too, no doubt, with little money to buy turf. His father
had left them a purse of coins three Springs past, before hed
buggered off to sea again with Johns older brother Jamey,
The Chosen One, in tow. But the money had dwindled quickly to
naught, and the new babe Da had left in Mam as a parting gift
arrived hale and healthy and made as if to stay. That meant, John
knew, that someone had to go.
He knew too, that hed be the one.
During the long walk north across the tidal flats of Mud Island,
Kit had clutched Johns hand painfully tight and explained
her Grand Plan. Shed been saving money, she said, from the
mending she did on the side, when there was time away from beating
and boiling rich folks laundry. Shed saved enough
now to send him away to school, a proper school for Catholic boys
at the chapel at Coolock, where he might learn everything the
English boys learned, though it would be a secret school; operating
a Catholic school in Ireland was now a crime, punishable by law.
As they had walked on, the marshland had given way to fallow
winter pasture, and in the distance Kit and John could see smoke
rising from the cottages at Coolock. John had never once been
outside the confines of the stinking, dangerous docklands, and
he had paused a moment to draw in a deep, cool breath of clear
air. Glorious. Looking up, the sky was endless. All of Heaven,
it seemed, was spread out above him and hed felt suddenly
light, suddenly free. A good feeling, and one hed never
had.
At the rectory door, Kit had pressed several coins into Johns
cold hand and had knelt before him. Shed smoothed his wild
hair back tenderly and swiped a smudge of dirt from his forehead
with her quick fingers. He had studied her carefully then, wanting
to sear her warm, dark beauty into his memory forever. Shed
leaned forward and kissed his cheek, whisking away a recalcitrant
tear there that threatened to be his undoing.
Go on now, Jacky, shed said. Youre
the sharpest one of all of us by far. Learn all that you can.
Nothing, even gold, serves a man so well as his mind.
And shed held him so tight he thought hed burst,
and shed promised shed be back. She had turned then
and started home towards the oily sky over Ballybough, leaving
him small and alone on the rectory steps in the falling dusk.
Kit had been as good as her word, of course, visiting every month
to pay the schoolmaster Father Cassidy, and to spend the short
afternoon with John. Kit always brought stories from home, of
the places John knew, of the people he missed. She always remembered
to bring an apple, too, a dear treat for her much loved little
brother. At first it had been brutally hard to watch her leave
each time; he felt as if his heart was being torn anew from his
chest at the end of each visit. But the pain had eased, steadily.
Now he found he could look forward to her visits without dreading
her inevitable departure. John came to realize, slowly, that he
had grown quite content in Coolock. In fact, to his great surprise,
he was really bloody happy there.
He liked the chapel school. At the school he was fed on a somewhat
regular basis, at the school he was kept fairly warm, usually.
True, he was small, and like most small things he had to endure
some torment, but he tried to tell himself the other lads really
didnt mean him any great harm. Not like the boys back home
at Ballybough who prowled the docklands by the mouth of the Liffey;
the ones whod like as not drown you and pinch your pockets
to boot, or sell you off to anyone offering a penny or a crust
of bread. No, life at the school in Coolock was extraordinarily
good, he decided.
And above all else, besides the lovely familiar hymns they sang
and the comforting low drone of Father Riordans daily Mass,
and the gentle press of his young cohorts on the wooden pews beside
him, and the soft, sweet, mothering gaze of Our Lady the Statue
in the Corner--above all that--they were all being taught to read.
To read! Like honest-to-god sons of gentlemen, his rough little
lot was learning to read, just as Kit had said. Amazing!
Johns brother Jamey might have the lions share of
his fathers affection and a career at sea and someday an
inheritance, but could he write his name? John thought not. John,
on the other hand, was an expert at the writing. Each day, when
at the start of lessons Father Cassidy instructed the boys to
practice writing their names on their slates, John, rapt with
delight, tenderly scratched out J-O-H-A-N-N-E-S over and over
again: his beautiful name. He didnt possess half of what
his brother did, but he had his name and he knew it inside and
out: J like a sea-monster rising from the waves, the lovely plump
egg of O, H strong and straight like the masts of a ship, the
arrowheaded A, the dual Ns like fortresses, E sharp with spines,
and finally, his favorite letter, the clever S, swaying ever this
way and that, tricksy-like, but always remaining upright in perfect,
effortless balance.
He imagined that someday, when he and Jamey arrived at the Gates
of Heaven and holy Saint Peter bade them make their marks in the
Book of Life, Jameys wobbly cross would be entirely outshone
by Johns brilliant, sweeping signature. It would be a feast
for the eyes, his name, and inscribed with such remarkable artistry
that Saint Peter himself would turn his blessed head away from
its astonishing beauty and weep crystalline tears of joy.
And the words they learned! Ah God, they were each like tiny,
cunning riddles, fairly begging to be solved. To think he was
learning the glorious sibilant language hed heard and mimicked
every Sunday of his life at Mass thrilled him to the core. Latin
was so different from the Englishmans speech, and stranger
still than his own native gaelige. Latin sounded strong, and proud,
and important; John was convinced God spoke it fluently. God had
to, of course, as Hed written the Bible and John knew that
was in Latin. Perhaps, on that first day in Heaven, after John
had dazzled Saint Peter with his calligraphic skills, he could
nip into some soft cloudy corner with the Lord himself and have
a nice old chat in Latin. Course, at the moment, theyd
only be able to talk about sailors, farmers, girls, and pirates,
as first declension nouns were really all he had down pat; the
second declension was dodgy at best and the third positively made
him cry with its manic grammatical contortions. He hoped God would
understand his scholarly plight. John felt fairly sure he would;
who didnt like to talk of girls and pirates after all?
Father Cassidy, whom John thought quite savvy as hed copped
on to Johns love of reading straight away, gave him even
more Latin to read on the sly. He devoured the extra work greedily:
silly love poetry by a cove called Catullus and a wonderful war
story that started straight off as any proper story should with
soldiers and weapons. And singing, for some reason. The
pagan authors, Father Cassidy explained, and dont
ye be after trumpeting yer gob to Father Riordan that I gave them
to ye, or therell be the Devil to pay. Father smiled
and winked. So to speak.
John liked Father Cassidy very much.
Father also brought hapenny broadsheets back from his trips
into Dublin City so that John could practice his English. It
seems an Englishmans world now, John, Father Cassidy
had said the first time he presented the broadsheets to the boy,
and youd best learn his language and his ways. Though
mind ye keep close in your heart who ye are and from whence ye
came, lad. A man who abandons his past wanders a trackless future.
The smuggled broadsheets were a welcome distraction from the increasing
difficulty of Johns Latin studies. The broadsheets were
no expensive prize, just cheap printings of the lyrics of popular
songs, with smudgy engravings in the corners meant to illustrate
the words within. Some were a mite bawdy and good for a laugh,
and some told the gruesome tales of rogues and cutthroats and
highwaymen and all manner of criminals. John liked those best.
His favorite by far was a ballad about Captain Kidd, the privateer-turned-pirate
whod recently been done in at London for his treachery.
To Johns great delight and amazement, Father Cassidy knew
the tune to this one, and he taught it to John, after extracting
a solemn promise from the boy that he would never, ever, ever
sing it aloud anywhere in the vicinity of Coolock. They had huddled
together that evening in a corner of the rectory kitchen after
Cook had retired for the night and sang together in a whisper:
Oh my name is Robert Kidd, as I sailed, as I sailed,
Oh my name is Robert Kidd, as I sailed,
Oh my name is Robert Kidd and Gods Laws I did forbid,
And most wickedly I did as I sailed!
John decided that if he ever had need to become a priest, he
wanted to be just exactly like Father Cassidy.
*******************
John emerged from his reverie to discover he was still freezing,
still starving, and still at Mass. But the pervasive cold in the
stone chapel had eased slightly as the weak winter sun filtered
through the narrow, roughly-glazed windows. Father Riordan began
his sermon and John tightened his grip on his heathen belly, which
protested ever louder as the service carried on. The other lads
were restless too, and the pews vibrated with the impatience of
fifteen pairs of swinging feet. John tried desperately to concentrate
on Father Riordans words, if only to wrench his mind from
his hunger, and for a few minutes he succeeded. But then another
insistent voice caught his attention: a low whisper from somewhere
behind his right ear.
Jacky Teague.
Johns heart sank. It was Michael Feeney, an older boy and
self-appointed torturer of the young. John had finally stood up
to him only last week, no longer willing to endure Feeneys
pinches, trips, and hard shoves. John had plucked up his courage
and had thrown a good old docklands punch that had burst the older
boys nose in a dramatic spray of blood and leveled him to
the ground. Furious at the insult, but too proud to admit hed
been bested by the tiny Teague boy, and far too smart to risk
beating the piss out of the lad in a public setting, Feeney instead
instituted a week-long psychological war against John. On Monday
Johns only blanket was discovered in a mucky puddle at the
far end of the McCabes cow pasture. On Tuesday, five huge
crushed spiders found their way into Johns morning porridge.
Yesterday, Johns shoes were hauled out of the village well
incased in a block of ice. And today it appeared Michael Feeney
meant to be a bit braver in his cruelty.
Jacky Teague, I know ye can hear me.
John leaned forward in the pew and kept his eyes trained on the
priest. Hed be damned if he let this amadan* get the better
of him.
Jacky, aint it nearly time for your lovely sister
to make a visit to the countryside? I hear all the farmers
sons talkin about her...
John stiffened.
The smooth voice continued.
...how they cant wait for her to come...
Feeling a cold wave of fury engulf him, John struggled to keep
himself from reacting in any way to Feeneys words.
...how shes so willin and friendly-like...
His ears were buzzing now with anger, and he clung with whitening
knuckles to the bench beneath him.
...and the easiest trick ever to stroll into town...
John ground his teeth and squeezed his eyes shut as hard as he
could. Behind his eyelids, red and white starbursts bloomed.
...why, they say shes on her back and knees to the
sky without even so much as a hello, most times...
Shuddup!
The chapel went as silent as a boneyard at midnight.
Shuddup, you, Michael Feeney! John stood and whirled
around to face his tormenter, who had gone entirely white with
shock at the ferocity of the boys reaction.
John, trembling now with shame and rage, rattled on.
Shut yer false mouth! Least my sisters a fair looker
and sweet and kind as the Virgin herselfnot at all like
yer mess of a sister, Michael Feeney, and oh yes, Ive seen
her, too: all foul of face and beef to the heels like a Tipperary
heifer! No mand ever look twice at her, lest he were tryin
to suss if shed graze happily in his field!
He stopped, panting hard to catch his breath, and heard his own
lone voice echoing against the stone vault of the church. He came
to his senses then, in the sickening silence. Glancing around
at the sea of stricken faces watching him in horror, John slowly,
wretchedly lowered himself back down onto the pew to await his
fate. He didnt have to wait long. With a choked cry of outrage,
Father Riordan charged the stalls and tore John from his seat,
one-handed, and hauled him from the chapel.
It was only when the priest had reached the sacristy, dragging
John behind him like a miserable doll, and had thrust the boy
deep into the recesses of a closet, did Father Riordan seem to
regain his ability to speak once again. He slammed the closet
door shut so violently it shook and John heard the latch set.
And yell stay in there, boy, Father Riordan
growled through the closet door, begging the Lords
forgiveness for disrupting his sacred office with yer filthy,
slanderous tongue, until such time as I return and grant you leave.
Mind, Im just old enough that I might forget Ive left
you in there at all, in which case I suggest you begin praying
your Rosary now; you should make it through a good hundred before
ye starve to death. John listened gloomily as Father Riordan
spun on his heel and stormed from the sacristy, nearly ripping
the door from its hinges as he wrenched it shut behind him.
After some minutes, when he was absolutely sure the Father wouldnt
be returning for a second round, John allowed himself to shift
a bit. Hed landed hard on the corner of something and he
poked experimentally at his bruised back. He tried to straighten
his legs in the cramped closet, but the best he could manage was
to untangle them and sit perched on his sore tailbone, knees to
chin. It was going to be a long fecking day, and goddamnit if
he wasnt going to miss class and all. He cursed himself
as an eejit who didnt know when to shut his gob, in a fierce
litany to himself over and over in the dark. Then he had a good
cry and afterwards practiced his letters with his finger in the
dust on the floor of the closet until he fell uncomfortably to
sleep.
**********************
When John awoke again, both the closet and the sacristy were
pitch dark. His neck had a terrific crick in it from sleeping
so awkward-like, and his arse was numb. One leg had gone entirely
pins-and-needles from foot to thigh. He was so cold he could hardly
bring his thin fingers together to make a fist and his toes were
like little icy stumps. With nothing to do but replay his own
stupidity endlessly in his mind, and finding self-pity oddly exhausting,
John had nearly dozed off again when a light suddenly spilled
under the door of the closet. John squirmed painfully to the keyhole
and peered out into the sacristy. There was Father Cassidy, lighted
lantern in hand. For one triumphant moment John thought Father
Cassidy had been sent by Father Riordan to set him free from his
prison, and his heart leapt. But he quickly realized that was
not to be. Father Cassidy, it seemed, had a more pressing task
at hand as he didnt take even a single step towards the
closet. John watched curiously as the Father set the lantern on
the oaken press against the far wall before slipping back into
the hall to retrieve something from the shadows.
In the dim light John could just about make out a trencher in
Fathers left hand, piled high with something pale and soft
lookingbread?and in his right hand, a decanter. Johns
heart raced again and his belly chimed in. Father Cassidy had
brought him something to eat! Of course! Father Cassidy had thought
the punishment too harsh for such a hungry little lad and hed
smuggled in a late supper for John. John was wriggling with delight
now, hardly able to contain himself. But then, inexplicably, Father
Cassidy took down a set of black iron keys from their nail in
the doorframe, opened the doors of the press, placed the food
and drink inside and locked the press again. He replaced the keys
and was gone, taking the lantern and shutting the door as he left,
leaving John alone in the dark once more.
Puzzled, John sat back from the keyhole. Why lock food away in
the sacristy, of all places? There was a perfectly good kitchen
in the rectory just next door, and it had loads of space. Odd.
They didnt keep anything in the sacristy but some bibles,
Father Riordans and Father Cassidys vestments, and
the vessels for the...oh. For the body and blood of Christ. Father
Cassidy hadnt locked up his supper; hed locked up
the host for tomorrows Mass. That made sense. Though, really,
that seemed quite a lot of bread and wine for just fifteen schoolboys
and a handful of stragglers from the village who could manage
to scrape themselves out of their beds and into church that filthy
early. There was rather a lot extra there.
Out of the blackness, Johns famished belly made a sound
like a demon being released from the bowels of Hell.
Bugger it. He was unlocking that press.
He rifled through the closet frantically, searching for something,
anything to use as a lockpick on the closet door. Eventually he
found a long-handled candle-snuffer abandoned in the bottom of
a crate and he pried the decorative finial from its end. Sticking
the pointed end of the handle far into the recesses of the lock,
John tried valiantly for near half an hour with growing frustration
and little success to bring the inner mechanism round. Exasperated,
he sat back on his heels to consider the situation. Something
was wrong. Everything inside the lock seemed to be in the incorrect
place. Almost as if...almost as if it wasnt locked at all.
No. Surely it was. Hadnt he heard Father Riordan lock the
door after tossing him inside? John wracked his brain furiously.
He couldnt remember. Tentatively, he pushed on the door.
It moved forward half an inch.
Relief washed over him. The door hadnt been bolted; only
the latch held it closed. With his fingers splayed against the
inside of the door, John searched for the twine catch. He found
it and gave it a tug. The latch lifted easily from the outside,
and the closet door creaked open.
Huh. That bloody easy.
John paused for a moment inside the open door in case anyone
had detected his escape. When no one arrived to reincarcerate
him, he limped across the flagstones to the sacristy door, giving
silent thanks to the risen moon now flooding the room with her
gentle blue light. It took four painful tries, and a skinned shinbone
to boot, but John finally managed to leap up high enough to retrieve
the ring of keys Father Cassidy had hung so neatly and conveniently
on the doorframe. Throwing himself down in front of the press,
he began unceremoniously shoving the keys, one by one, into the
lock.
His hands trembled uncontrollably as he tried each key in turn.
By now mildly delirious with hunger, cold, and fright, John imagined
he felt the keys silently multiplying in his sweaty hands. God,
they just went on forever. Hed never get through them all.
Hed still be fumbling with the lock when Father Riordan
arrived to prepare for Mass and hed be killed then and there,
he was sure of it. Killed so dead any memory of him would be sucked
straight back into the earth. Killed so dead there wouldnt
be even a pinprick of a hole left behind where hed been.
Hed resigned himself entirely to death when The Miracle
occurred; the key hed just thrust into the keyhole turned
as gently as an oar in the water and John felt the sweet spring
of the bolt as it fell away inside. The door to the press swung
slowly open andoh Jesus Lord Almighty, there in the middle
in the half-dark was the trencher brimming with a mound of bready
hosts and beside it, the red clay decanter full to the lip with
dark wine.
The entirety of Johns inner theological struggle played
out in only seconds as the seductive scent of the bread and the
wine caressed his nose. His starved stomach roared to life and
he nodded in vigorous assent to the perverse voice in his head
which asserted stridently that no, it wasnt the body and
blood of Our Lord until the Father proclaimed it so, and what
would the harm be in having just a taste, for surely the Lord
wouldnt want to see even such a small and inconsequential
boy as himself starve to death. Hadnt Father Cassidy told
them only yesterday that there was the hand of Providence even
in the fall of a mere sparrow? Surely the Lord saw him and knew
his need and oh, one tiny sip wouldnt hurt anything at all.
Theyd never miss it. Never even know it was gone. And so,
with a strangled cry, John fell messily upon the contents of the
press and set about busily working his way through the greater
part of the Seven Deadly Sins.
**********************
He came to some time later, to the not-so-gentle nudging of the
toe of a boot in his ribs. His brain felt terribly addled, and
only when he raised himself up on his quivering arms did the memories
of the night before begin to assail him. On the floor beside him
lay the trencher, overturned, and not a single host in sight.
The decanter, now on its side, had rolled a few feet away, light
and empty as it was. Directly beneath him were the keys on their
ring. John reached up one severely unsteady hand to examine the
flesh of his face, which, he discovered, bore a distinct and clear
imprint of three of the keys. The press doors were wide open to
the day, just as he had left them in the moonlight.
John, for the love of our sweet Lord and Savior, what have
you done?
It was Father Cassidys voice, and John swung his strangely
heavy head around towards the sound of it. The motion unbalanced
him and he collapsed down onto one elbow. He managed to look up.
There, peering down at him wearing an expression of utter disbelief
was indeed Father Cassidy. John tried to smile pleasantly and
say good morning, but when he opened his mouth to speak, all that
came out was: Nnnghh.
Oh Jesus, Mary, and Joseph...Jacky.
Like a vision of a dark-haired angel, Kit emerged from behind
Father Cassidy, her hands covering her mouth and her black eyes
wide. John, ecstatic, laughed aloud rather sloppily. What a wonderful
surprise! Kit had arrived to see him today and it hadnt
nearly been so long as a month since her last visit! This was
turning out to be a brilliant morning, washing away all the evilness
of the day and night before. Whats more, he was beginning
to enjoy the funny thick feeling in his head; it made everything
pleasant and good, and maybe hed just lay right down again
and have another fine nap. Yes.
But Father Cassidy hauled him to his feet. He wavered there unsteadily
and nearly crumpled back down to the flagstones again. Curiously,
his legs wouldnt obey him, and suddenly all he wanted to
do in the world was to slump onto the splendidly cool floor and
sleep for the rest of his life. When John lifted his head towards
Father Cassidy, who seemed to be speaking to himhe couldnt
really tell anymore, for the ringing in his ears, though he thought
he should make a show of it in case the Father wasboth Father
Cassidy and the sacristy walls behind him began spinning most
unusually. Confused, John looked over to Kit, who also gyred away
from him. John closed his eyes, but felt himself, too, pulled
into the dizzying whirlpool, turning faster and faster, and the
light from the sacristy windows became painfully bright and suddenly
he was terribly, terribly hot and his mouth was fiercely dry.
He broke out in a wretched, cold sweat at the nauseating heat
of the tortuous room, and then suddenly, horrifyingly, his heavy
stomach lurched like a shying horse. He swallowed the sick back
hard, but it did no good. He moaned softly, hiccoughed once, and
with a tremendous, shuddering heave, wetly deposited an amazing
amount of the body and blood of Our Lord directly upon Father
Cassidys smartly polished boots.
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Everything was wrong.
So very, very wrong.
As a murky twilight descended on Ballybough, John sat miserably
on a flat damp stone outside his familys rooms, listening
to the raised voices warring within. He ran his grubby hands through
his long-unwashed hair and heaved a heavy sigh. It was the end
of the world, no doubt about that, and Christ Almighty did his
head hurt.
Cmere, you. Ya look a fright.
Johns brother Jamey, who had been leaning jauntily against
the wattled outside wall of the building, keeping quiet company
with his little brother, crouched down on his heels and spun John
round so he could attend to the lads ratty queue. John let
himself be spun, limply. Pulling out the leather cord holding
Johns hair in place, Jamey patiently combed his long fingers
through the uncivilized locks. John leaned back into his brothers
warm hands, finding some small comfort in his ministrations. When
Jamey was satisfied that all the snarls had come loose, he drew
Johns hair back and bound it tightly once again in a neat
queue. Jamey gave Johns shoulder an affectionate shove as
he stood again, straightening his smart weskit and brushing the
folds from his breeches.
There yare now. Like a proper tar.
John managed a weak smile.
Ta, Jamey. He looked up at his brother. Three years
away at sea and hed become a man, just like that. Jamey
smiled sympathetically down at John, and John suddenly noticed
that one of Jameys front teeth had gone gold. He stared
at it, fascinated.
Yer alright, Jacky, said Jamey soothingly. Just
calm yerself. Cant do nothing about it now.
John wished it could be that easy. Thered be no hope of
calm following a day like today. After his expulsion from the
chapel school that morningGod, the broken look on Kits
sweet face as Father Riordan returned her money just about rent
him in twoand during the endless, gloomy, sickening march
back to Ballybough (punctuated by several stops along the way
so that he could retch himself dry beside some unfortunate stand
of salt hay), John had learned that his father and Jamey had at
last returned home from sea. Theyd made port the day before
in Dublin Harbor, their ships coffers overflowing with Spanish
gold. Kit, in her excitement, had run nearly the entire path to
Coolock to collect John and bring him home to Ballybough for the
weeks end; they would all be together to celebrate the sailors
triumphant return and rejoice in the good fortune that suddenly
seemed to be shining upon the long-suffering Teague family. But
all the happiness that would have attended their reunion had vanished
when a heavy-hearted Kit bade John wait outside on his stone and
led their father gently back into the familys keeping-room
to tell him of the mornings dire events.
That had been near two hours ago, and from the sound of things,
Da was still blazing hot. John hoped Mam had managed to sneak
out the back with little Mary and find refuge with a neighbor.
For sure, they didnt need to view Johns almost certain
dismemberment at the hands of his father.
Then, without warning from within, the door to the keeping-room
was flung open with such force that the latch wedged itself into
the wattle of the outside wall. Startled, and then blindly terrified,
John vaulted off his seat, but Teague was quick and had him hard
by the collar before he could make good his escape. He heaved
the boy into the house.
Jamey followed them inside hastily and held up a warning hand.
Now Da, go easy on him. Hes only a little fella.
Teague shot him a look that was all violence and poison, one
that surely would have wilted a lesser man. But Jamey stood his
ground silently, and crossed his arms before him, making it quite
clear that he wouldnt leave the room without a battle.
Big enough, snarled Teague, before turning his attention
back to an ashen, quaking John. Big enough indeed to pay
handsomely for his wickedness and dishonor in whatever way I see
fit. Without loosening his hold on the boys filthy,
sweaty shirt, Teague brought his pock-marked face level to Johns.
John, horror-struck, peered into his fathers eyes and saw
murder glowing there.
Devils imp, muttered Teague, how dare
you destroy the peace of my first day back on familiar soil in
three long years? Larcenyfrom the Churchdrunkennesswithin
the Churchblasphemyspilled all about the sacristy
floorand to top it off, expulsion from the chapel school,
all in this one fine morning, eh? Busy lad. Tell me, young Jacky,
what use are you to me now? Youve disgraced the family and
damned yourself to Hell a hundred times over. Whats to stop
me from selling you to the very next molly-house I see?
His fathers grip on the front of his shirt grew even tighter
and John felt himself being lifted several inches off the ground.
Kit rose nervously from her seat at the table. Out of the corner
of his eye John saw Jamey begin to advance toward them, and for
the third time in as many days John was absolutely sure he was
going to be killed just as dead as you please.
Then a thought struck him.
II can read, he squeaked.
What did you say? Teague roared, giving his
son a fierce little shake.
John took a deep breath and forced his roiling insides to calm.
I said...I said I can read. I learned how. At the chapel
school.
Teague looked suddenly more thoughtful and less homicidal. The
rage began to drain from Teagues face and John felt his
body lower somewhat.
What can you read, boy?
Latin words. English words. Loads of words.
And do you know what they mean?
Yes. Well, usually. Most of the time. Fairly often, that
is.
Teague smiled greasily. Is that so. So it seems time in
school wasnt entirely lost on my wastrel of a son, eh? Interesting.
Could use him at Shipwreck Cove if he can read and write,
said Jamey coolly, moving in still closer to Teague and John and
locking his night-black eyes with his fathers. John saw
a sudden flash at Jameys side and realized he had his knife
out. Ye know as well as I do that the Brethren Court calls
for the Code to be drafted again in but seven years time.
Who among us unschooled rogues could manage that? Not a one, Id
wager. Not even you, Da, would be up to that tricky task. An
who from outside of the Brethren could we ever trust with such
a job?
Teague dropped his eldest sons gaze and stood silently
for a moment. John swung slightly in the air, still suspended
from his fathers fist. Then, nodding slowly, Teague set
John down onto the dusty floor. Like a wounded animal, John scuttled
away from him and into Kits waiting arms in the hearthside
corner of the keeping-room.
Thats a fine idea, Jamey. The Brethren and the Code
both could indeed benefit from our Jackys schooling. And
until that time hell make himself additionally beneficial
by learning a trade.
A trade? Jamey put one hand to his forehead in exasperation.
Da, hell forget bloody everythin hes learned
at school if hes a tradesman for seven years.
Teague gave Jamey a disinterested sideways glance.
Son, your lack of faith in me is at once refreshing and
disconcerting. Least ways I feel assured you cant be taken
easily for a fool. And put away your knife.
Grimacing, Jamey stowed his knife in his belt, but John noted
with relief that he hadnt removed his hand from the weapons
handle.
Teague paced to the hearth and studied the fire briefly before
turning again to his eldest son.
I have a man in London who owes me a favor: a cartographer.
And he was still in need of an apprentice, last I knew.
Cartographer? Jamey looked suspicious.
What in the hell is that?
Teague swiveled round to John, who shrank back instantly.
Whats a cartographer, Jacky?
Frantically, John turned the new word over in his mind. The beginning
bit of the word was familiar: it seemed to be a first-declension
Latin noun, thank God.
Carta... began John uncertainly, in
Latin carta means map...or chart...
Teague kept silent, allowing John a moment to puzzle it out.
John looked up at last. Hes a fella what makes maps?
The proud, paternal smirk looked so unnatural on Teagues
hard face that John pressed himself in closer to Kit, just in
case.
Ill be damned, Teague chuckled darkly. Youre
good for something after all.
John allowed himself to stand a bit straighter, but still maintained
his safe proximity to Kit. Jamey gave him a wink.
Teague retrieved his greatcoat from the peg on wall beside the
fireplace and struggled into it. Well hold up here
for a week or two to find a crew, and then well ship out
to London with the boy. Londonll give us an opportunity
to spend some of this loot besides. Theres nothing an Irishmans
gold can buy in Dublin these days save suspicion. He crushed
his weathered tricorne onto his nest of hair, opened the front
door, and stepped out into the darkened street. Ill
be at the Cask and Flagon with the lads if you have need of me.
The door swung shut behind him, hinges complaining lustily.
Finally sheathing his knife, Jamey crossed the room and sat down
heavily on the bench beside his sister and brother. John leaned
limply against Kit, his brows knit with confusion and disbelief.
So...Im to be apprenticed to a mapmaker in
London? John asked Jamey incredulously.
Jamey tugged softly on his brothers queue and smiled broadly,
gold tooth gleaming in the firelight.
Well done there, Jacky, he said.
*********************
John lay awake on his straw pallet by the hearth, watching the
turf glow, the familiar darkness of the keeping-room pressing
in on him gently. The maelstrom of the days events had set
his mind whirring and he couldnt yet sleep for the clamor
of the thoughts rattling round. Hed gone from hero to outcast
and back again, all in the course of one terribly long day; John
marveled at how ones fortunes could change with such dizzying
swiftness. With a sigh he hauled himself up to take off his belt.
The blasted buckle had slipped to the side and it pinched fiercely
whenever he shifted on the straw. As he worked at the cheap buckle
he considered his fate. He hadnt the faintest idea what
the Brethren Court was or where Shipwreck Cove lay, but he imagined
that if Jamey was there it couldnt be half bad and actually
might be good for a bit of craic*. John tried to imagine
himself in seven years time and did some figuring on his
fingers. Hed be sixteen then, the same age Jamey was now.
A man. John liked that idea, having grown increasingly tired with
being young and small. And furthermore, when he became a man hed
have a lovely shiny gold tooth, just like Jameys. Maybe
two.
The belt finally yielded to his strenuous efforts and John cast
it aside victoriously. From the corner of his eye, John saw a
folded sheet of paper tumble away into the darkness along with
the belt. John scrambled over to retrieve it. Hed completely
forgotten that hed tucked it into his belt that morning
before he left Coolock. John had been gathering up his meager
effects in the cramped dormitory the boys shared when Father Cassidy
found him. Father Cassidy had knelt to embrace the ill, tearful
boy and presented him with the little packet of paper.
Keep it close John, and mind that ye dont open it
til youre home in Ballybough. Twill remind ye of your
fine times with us at Coolock School.
And John had sobbed fitfully into Father Cassidys shoulder
then, as if his heart would break, until the priest calmed him
with soft words, took up his hand and led him gently from the
rectory.
There, in the dimness of the midnight fire, feeling so far from
Coolock, John opened the paper.
Even before hed unfolded it he knew what it was. He ran
his fingers over the bold black majuscule letters at the top of
the page, pressed so hard into the paper by the strength of the
printer and his press that the words felt as if theyd been
carved there. John read the title aloud to the empty room:
The Ballad of Robert Kidd, Most Nefarious Cutthroat and
Pirate.
John shivered with delight. It had always sounded so wonderfully
wicked.
Then, at the very bottom of the sheet, two lines of careful handwriting
caught his eye. John wriggled backwards towards the hearth and
the scant light of the smoldering turf to see the nut-brown ink
more clearly. The lines were in Latin:
Johanni, Cassidus Pater amicus tuus,
semper salutem et benedictionem.
To John; Father Cassidy, your friend,
sends his greetings and his blessing, always.
A sudden sound from the foot of the loft stairs broke his concentration,
and Kit, wrapped in her homespun shawl against the chill, emerged
from the shadows there. She shook open the folded bed-rug she
carried and arranged it about Johns thin shoulders tenderly.
Didnt want ye to perish of the cold. Twould
be sore unfortunate on yer first night home, she grinned.
Thanks very much, Kit, John beamed and snuggled happily
into the deliciously warm woolen depths of the heavy bed-rug,
his eyes sparkling like dark gems in the lowering light.
What have you got there? Kit asked, nodding her head
towards the yellowed broadsheet John clutched tightly in his hand.
Its the words to a song. An English song. Bout
a pirate. Its brilliant.
Kit drew one careful fingertip down the sheet. You can
read all those words on the page there, Jacky? The whole song?
I can, yes.
Kit gave him a gentle shove to move him over and settled down
on the pallet next to him, drawing her arms around her knees.
She nudged him encouragingly with her shoulder.
Teach it to me.
***********************
In the stale air and dingy light of the hold of his fathers
ship, the Wicked Wench, John swung above the sea-soaked
floor in his thin hammock. With every wave he was drawn towards
the damp, oaken hull, and as he reached the wood, he carefully
chipped away one splinter with his shiv. Rolling forward into
the half-lit shadows, rolling back towards the hull; one chip.
Forward, back, one chip. One chip. And another. And another. By
the time the dogwatch had ended and the grey dawn seeped partway
down through the hatch, he was finished.
He ran his dirty fingers over his work, smoothing the rough edges
of the cuts, feeling the comforting shapes of the letters beneath
his fingertips.
JOHANNES.
His beautiful name.
As the watery daylight poured into the hold and crept across
the reeking floor, John felt the ship come about beneath him;
she was running due east at last now, into the dawn and bound
on for London.
~.~
*
"tabula in naufragio:" Latin: literally, "a plank
in a shipwreck;" has the sense of "any port in a storm"
* "amadan:" Irish: idiot
* "craic:" Irish: fun, good times
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